Claudya Siahaan

Love Love Love

2009-12-27T16:27:00.000-08:00

I found myself trapped inside the ever-so-confusing holiday madness, with a broken heart to go with it, I am not the type of person who ponders around my own despair, yet this time it felt different.

I blame my sensitivity, I've mentioned before that I've been riding the emotional roller coaster ride for awhile,ooh the loneliness.

As a mere human being couldn't help to fall in love, or maybe lust.

"Lust is Lush" that is my new quote. I think I fell in love.I'm not quite sure about it though

What is love anyway? I'm never sure about that.I love my family,but I know that's different.

I love, a boy. He's not my bestfriend, not even a close friend. I'm the type of girl who made fun of myself to make ends meet, unfortunately it seems that my affection for him derivated towards 'buddies' than lovers. I didn't know him well, yet after a few random conversations he had managed to chain me with his smirks and charms. He's gorgeous to me, even more I adore guys who are skilled.He reads books aswell as comics, he's passionate about his hobby, he completely cares about trivial things in life, he's mannered, well-groomed, he's smart and he's not even trying and he makes me laugh, every single time.

See, obviously I am in love :|

But I know he will never return my feelings, he will never think of me more than a friend, to him I am someone he could talk to about almost everything, yes, we talk about a girl, the one he's pursuing.

However I rather have him talk about that than he's not saying anything at all. Even when we talk about her, I smirk at the thought of him dating and being a boyfriend to that girl, it does kill me inside every single time. Yet, I couldn't help but to wish him well.

Everytime he ask for my help, asking for advice,begging for a respond, I...

I am so in love its sickening.

I don't want to fall out of love, but I know eventually I will. I don't want to even try making him mine, I do not deserve him :/. I rarely talk about my love life, cause first, it's existency is rare, second, it's dull, third, I just don't want the whole world to know (unlike SOME people). Even for those who knows, they know I am never a go getter. I choose pride over love..

I think that's my problem eh?

Love is just distraction, until I get that YELLOW JACKET :)

WHAT EXACTLY DO I WANT?

2009-12-26T02:06:00.000-08:00

1. ACCEPTED IN UNIVERSITAS INDONESIA FISIP: HUBUNGAN INTERNASIONAL 2010

2. PENTAX LENS SMC FA 50MM F1.4

3. For my Parents to be truly happy together and i can make them feel happy and proud

4. LULUS UAN!

5. LOSE SOME FUCKING WEIGHT!

yeah i'm fucking serious now, i've been rejected bcos of FAT, eat shit boy.

6. have my lust... fulfilled

7. hair make-over.. i ♥ you Corry Kennedy!

Everyone seems to dislike her somehow? but I don't care, she's cool and her hair is massively cool!

yeah yeah yeah

Merry Christmas everyone

Holiday Tunes

2009-12-21T07:22:00.001-08:00

Tunes buzzing my ear for the christmas holiday! Random much? Hahaha

1. One Week of Danger - The Virgins

2. The Ancient Commonsense of Things - Bishop Allen

3. Bang Bang You're Dead - Dirty Pretty Things

4. Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis

5. Half Life - Duncan Sheik

6. Move Like You Gonna Die - Cobra Starship

7. Fill My Little World - The Feeling

8. Bittersweet - Kanye West feat. John Mayer

9. Cave In - Owl City

10. I Guess It's Gonna Rain Today - Sondre Lerche

More playlist coming up soon

No John Mayer? Well, he's ALWAYS on any of my playlist, he doesn't need to be mentioned anymore.

bad things never have good timing

2009-12-21T04:46:00.000-08:00

i find my self completely chained to everyday routine. i hate change of plans, I'm not a spontaneous person, never been one. i think there's where all this self pity starts from, i found my self lacking from my own standard. I expect much from my self, i expect myself to do well. Then at times when i do not perform so well, then i will stop to think, is this what i meant to do in the first place...

today i woke up to my sister's plea to help her, i was too sleepy, much to sleepy to even sympathize for her. i barely remember what i did, but i remember i hated it. I regret my actions of course, regret could only come so far...

when people say they never regret the things they've done... I am dubious. How could you not? I mean people make mistakes in life, well the wiser ones would take the mistakes they've done as lessons and make sure they will never done it again. Being a fool myself, whenever i did something disastrous, i could see the journey of it laid in front of me, i've seen the pattern before, yet i still choose to go through it. It's like going to a maze, a dungeon, but knowing your way around, knowing what's waiting in each corner, yet you do not dodge it, it simply hit you and you're hurt... It's like you could forecast it, yet you ignore it. It's also a cycle, bad things happened for a reason right? It can be a wake up call, it can be a way to improve yourself, it could be a challenge, it could be something you must endure, it can be anything... yet one thing never change, bad things never have good timing...

As i said before, i hate changes of plan, bad things interrupts everything, yet it can't be budged. you can't ignore it, it's like a bee surrounding a flower, it wouldn't go until the job is done.

Yet, it makes me agitated knowing that good things can never be predicted. I try not to set too much hope for good things, i might be disappointed. I can only pray for good things, really, who doesn't pray or wish for good things? People wish for health, wealth and prosperity, every new year, birthdays, christmas, we close our eyes, say our little prayer, praying for all the wonderful things to happen on our lives. Good things happens everyday in my life, i am just too oblivious, stubborn, arrogant and pessimist to notice it.

Sometimes, you're too busy to notice the good things in life. What's funny is that when you realize it, you rather tweet about it than thank God for those good things. Funny. I think God is smiling down at me now, knowing that i tweet more than i pray these days. Sorry. A priest once told me that the first thing i should when i wake up in the morning is pray, pray that God will lead me through everything i must do today. He said, who are we to start the day without God's guidance. True, and again, i think God is smiling down at me again, knowing that the first thing i do when i wake up is curse at anyone who wakes me up, yikes!

Getting what you want isn't necessarily a good thing, not getting what you want isn't a bad thing either.

Once my friends was debating about God's plan. We're high school seniors, of course God's plan is crucial, COLLEGE is the reason why the debate start. Well, it wasn't much of a debate, it was more of an argument, cause no one has one solid logical reason why they are right. Okay, one friend believe that because God had planned out everything for us anyway, why don't we just chill a little, cause if it's meant to be it's meant to be. Qui Sera Sera... My other friend, believes in hard work, dedication and goals. Clearly different right. I was just doodling while they battle it out, trying to convince each other who's right...

For me, i believe in working while praying. Ora et Labora. I believe that God has planned wonderful things in our life, yet our actions might effect the outcome. I was thought by my father to be like a farmer, a boxer and a runner.

A farmer has dedication, they plant their seed, water it, harvest it with such care and attention that their plants bloom and grow fruitfully.

A boxer has to be smart in their actions, when to save their energy and when to put their effort to hit, when to dodge a punch, what to do when got hit.

A runner has to play fair and square in a competition, yet they have to win, they have the drive to win.

My dad also told me that skills is nothing without character, he wants his children to be "minded". My mom wants me to be a good person, she knows me inside and out, she knows everything about me, which made me feel bad when i lied to her and she doesn't doubt me. My mom is the best mother in the world! She's graceful, smart, strong, beautiful, ages well, great cook, sensitive, caring and tasteful. She's all about treat others as you want to be treated. I can't imagine living my life with out her. I love my parents, not because they let me do stupid stuff, but because they care. God bless them :)

sighs

*something smelled nice from the kitchen, must be my aunt cooking for my lil cousins, NO I SHALL NOT EAT MIDNIGHT SNACKS AAA

2009-12-20T12:32:00.001-08:00

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2009-12-20T11:24:00.000-08:00

must do things after high school graduation, or after UAN and college shits

1. get hair extensions, dye hair brown-er...

2. stop eating or eat then throw it up

3. buy a 50mm f/1.8 or a 50mm f/1.4

4. MAJOR shopping

5. close my facebook

6. GYM-nation

7. live life to the fullest...

basically, i hate high school so much already. i dont mean to be unthankful or ungrateful...

i dont hate the people, i hate the system.

even though i am often misunderstood, doesn't mean i'm always good...

sometimes you wonder, do they even care about you.

stop wondering, start doing your own thing.

dependency suck ass

people who care wouldn't even put you in a state of doubt

i will stop trying so hard

2009-12-20T10:43:00.000-08:00

okay, i am insomniac. It's official that i should get prescribed over-the-counter sleeping pills. i sat here at 1.49 AM, it's monday already. My room is a mess, un-hanged cardigans hanging helplessly on my chairs, scrunched up tissues all over the wooden floor, shoes everywhere, empty tissue boxes and... teddy bears.

For these past few days(read: weeks) i have been constantly riding the emotional roller coaster ride, and no it is NOT PMS-y. Basically, there's like this huge hole on my chest and it keeps growing wider and deeper. Apparently i am hurt. I've drunk all the liquors i can manage to fill this hole up, and it does for sometime, but it just doesn't last... I've tried eating my way through it, but i just ended up throwing it up. It's like my body rejects those sodium, trans-fat filled food... I've tried sitcoms, laughed while watching, and that's about it...

NOTHING WORKS FOR ME

(even porn)

Not forgetting that i am feeling lonely... EXTREMELY lonely. It's not like I demand attention, i am no attention whore. But i am lonely, which explains the teddy bears. Oh yes folks, i am collecting teddy bears now. I have this one big teddy bear in my room, i always put it on the corner of my bed, since i felt so alone... i started hugging it when i sleep... to realize i will still hold it tight when i'm awake. I cry so easily now, i don't show it tho... i'm glad my room has a lock :|

i've been meaning to tell anyone who reads this, i got a friendship issue

i do not like gangs and so-called solidarity, if you're close, you're just close.i dont like sticking to just one particular circle of friends, but believe me i am nooo social butterfly. i dont do well in groups, i work better on my own (why do i feel so lonely then? dammit). However, i am loyal... i keep secrets well and i am a good listener (despite my crazy mood swings i am actually a good friend). I get offended easily, but i am no drama queen so i dont show it.

These are the things I'm bothered with...

1. people who you spend your time with most of the day doesn't equal an actual friend

2. people have other people they prefer to share their stories to

3. those people might not be you

4. yet why do they have to talk so loud about their 'secrets'

5. aren't secrets supposed to be kept private

6. does the word WHISPER comes into mind

7. you are annoyed

8. they ask you what's wrong? having a bad day?

9. "Fuck off!" you managed to say in your head, "No, i'm fine..." you blurted out...

10. you choose to be alone, dodging these questions..

Wait, i just figure out how i got to this lonely, desperate state.

Quite satisfying...

NOT

and one thing? is it possible that a close friend doesnt tell you about their love live because they think/know you dont have one? or you dont have any experience?

do they? Ouch...

sighs

You know, when you watch movies, you see these friendships and you fantasize on being in one...

fictional friendships i envy

1. Friends (Ross, Rachel, Monica, Chandler, Joey and Phoebe)

even though phoebe and ross annoys me sometimes, they are just wonderful :( and it's friendship in New York, what else do you want...

2. Calvin & Hobbes

Oh God, envious much!

3. Harry Potter (Harry, Hermione & Ron)

They are just fabulous aren't they? :(

okay, bored to death now...

ending this...

Sunday

2009-10-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

Sunday for me is

1. Going to Church Day

Which is always fabulous, it's another excuse to dress up and look fabulous, because when you're praise the Lord you better look good :) Lol, it's actually more than that. Church is exciting and nurturing for me, you feel cleansed and happy going there, it's way better than counseling or any therapy your doctor tells you to do. When you praise the God you believe in you just feel thankful you know, for EVERYTHING he had done for you. You just feel happier about life.

2. Going to the Market Day

Weekly shopping with Mom and Sis, even though it's tiring, especially if we go to the traditional market(which we almost always do) but it always have it's own fun. Like when i saw my mom being familiar and known in the market and being so friendly the merchants, i keep on asking, will i be able to do that, cause like if i'm gonna be a mother i would probably do the same thing right? Like she can tell if the meat is good or not, how many days has it been there and stuff just by giving it a glance, my mom rocks, it's awesome. And HOW CAN SHE MANAGE TO GET HALF A PRICE OF EVERYTHING SHE PURCHASED? Like how can she persuade the merchants to give her half the price, or 3/4 of the price AT LEAST. This little things just amazes me :)

my mommy and daddy, aren't they adorable :)

3. Nerd Day

Sunday is the only day i can catch up with my projects, home works, reports, study schedule and such. You know i'm preparing for my entrance exam for UI right? I'm aiming at the International Relation, having faith on in despite what EVERYONE said. So, no having total obvious fun on weekends until I GOT ACCEPTED :) Oh Lord Jesus, i put my life in your hand, You know what's best for me. Ora Et La Bora! Working and Praying!

Nerd Attire, just to entertain you guys...

Plaid oversized shirts, glasses, hair in a bun, nerd nerd nerd hahaha

So, i'll continue my nerd mode on haha, got piles of work to be done, Cheers everyone!

HELLO, I AM LINDSEEEY LOOHAN ;p

2009-10-24T06:01:00.000-07:00

OKAY, HELLO THERE! i haven't written anything in such a fucking long time and since i can never separate myself from the world wide web (i'm taking web design class, turns out be the very very fun) i decided to write again harr harr.

So okay so i've been into RUSSELL PETERS lately, if you don't know him, you should because he's the funniest comedian ever ;p and Jeff Dunham just rocks you know, i love Achmed, Bubba J and Sweet Daddy D :)

So beside my interest in comedy haha what's changed since the last time i wrote?

1. I cut my hair, slightly, but people DO notice which is awesome. rawr

Any difference? Naw....

2. I neglected korean stuff for awhile

3. Indie music is growing back on me (yay!)

4. I've been trying (and it's actually working) to study more

5. I joined this Model United Nation thing and it's really growing on me :) my juniors did a fantastic job preparing the event, i'm so very proud of them. I'm one of Japan Delegates representing in WHO :D, Azhim is also in the country as me representing in HRC, Pinka representing UNICEF, Thari representing UNFCCC and Dheta (as expected) is representing in UNDP. It's this event where we simulate the UN and where we'll act as diplomats of the country we picked randomly at a raffle. IT'S COMPLETELY CHALLENGING (you know how much i'm into all that stuff right, you know politics and diplomacy...)

Oh, yeah i think the Virgo in me is rising because these past few days i've been a complete PERFECTIONIST, in the worst ways possible. I can't stop cleaning things up, oh God! It makes me tired you know, but i just can't stop...

Okay, i gotta finish learning history this week or my studying schedule is gonna get screwed :*, hm so okay, cheers everyone

CSI : CLAUDYA SCENE INVESTIGATION

2009-07-07T18:33:00.000-07:00

TELEVISION

I'm addicted to it and since it's holiday, beside the internet that's getting crappier because of my sis and bro's constant torrenting, television has become my main source of entertainment :)

First, i get to watch shows that i apparently always missed like

CSI: Crime Scene Investigation

Yeah, i am a huge fan of this show, i've been watching it since season 1 :) and now the final season is airing and i'm super excited! Why do i love this show? I feel smart and getting smarter just by watching it, it kinda teaches you about life too. This is the original CSI after all, it doesn't need the drama that CSI Miami always bring (come on Horatio, stop taking off your sunglasses). The cast is also the most attractive out of all CSIs ;p They're just awesome in so many ways.

Although the casts have changed, Grissom (William Peterson) leaving and Sarah (Jorja Fox) and Warrick being dead (Garry Dourdan). Grissom left so he could live happily with Sarah, they occasionally appear back on the show, with the exception of Warrick, BECAUSE HE'S DEAD!! I friggin cried on those 2 episodes, i can't believe he's dead. HUHUHU

and also the main reason why i watch this show is :)

THIS GUY

A-hoyy

2009-07-07T08:41:00.000-07:00

family holiday?

My sister came back from Australia :) i was more than happy she's back in town, not just me, like every single one of my HUGE family was happy she's back, well she is an angel. Everyone says we look alike, but we deny it, we're related of course we look alike but we're not twins but but look at this ;p

seeing double? hahahahah

i do hate it when people cant tell who's older? or that they cant believe we're 5 years apart? and then people comment about how ... fertile my body is? STFU

anyway, she's back which means we're gonna be sharing rooms again, which is fine, until i realize she has A LOT OF STUFF. If i have enough space in my room, i'll gladly give her some, but DUDE MY ROOM IS CRAMPED already! my sister, being the genius she is notice that there's space under my bed, which is now filled with her clothes.

i lovee my sister to death, she keeps me grounded and makes me feel like a kid :) i kinda understand why Peter Pan dont want to grow up. u knw whaat? i miss that feeling about being a kid. being a kid should be a privilege you know. i love my childhood, wearing pretty frilly puffy dress with matching shoes ;p i'm such a fashionista back then. having people reading me stories, kindergarten rocks ;p

HOWEVER

no matter how sweet the past is, what you have right now is most important and treasurable, that's why it's called present right?

i guess the more you age, the more problems you face, which is why older people are considered more mature. I disagree with that, your age doesn't determine how wise you are. Age is nothing but numbers really, i feel that the older you are the more you nag and talk and complain, especially with women.

okay, thats it for you more blabber coming up soon :)

prom review

2009-06-25T04:10:00.000-07:00

peeps its been so long since i've last posted belieeeve me, i'm always willing to but things got in the way most of the time. Let's review one thing...

PROM

Well, it's actually a formal party, bcos prom is greatly associated with graduation, and i'm still a year away from graduation so it's called a formal party, and i'm part of the committee and i didn't do much, trust me. I just made the banner and that's it. Here's the

banner if u want to look

I friggin watch the Marie Antoinette movie (Sophia Coppola's) the night before i made this thing, just because...i think it'll be a great inspiration you know, and i find that movie absolutely entertaining and glamourous :) Screw the historical facts for this one, i believe Sophia Coppola made that film for entertainment, and i was greatly entertained. The theme is One Night In Paris aka C'est L'amour and frankly i didnt dress up for the event, i wore this gold-ish tube dress with black leather jacket (it's so rock'n roll isnt it :p) bcos i wiiish we had a new york themed one, but the paris one is just equally awesome (i think..) anyway, it was a great night, there wasnt many pictures of me and i didnt take much pictures too, i wasnt really in the mood...

something happened....

hahahah :)

from left to right (Kavi, Nadine, Ella, Meivan, Ms. Tia, Me, Ica and Tasia)

the color palette of the rest of the guest are pretty much the same

Black, Purple, Gold, Pink

the food is great :) the music was VERY ENJOYABLE, the guys put together a very good movie about the past 2 years and the ppl who's leaving :) i criieeed, im such a weep :'((

anyway it was a good night

more entriiies coming rigght up

been awhilee

2009-05-16T05:02:00.001-07:00

okay, it's been AWHILE since i've been posting things mainly because

1. i was very busy with my not yets

2. even though my status is HONORS i will still have to go to summer school if i fail a class

so, basically i've been working hard :) i am such a nice student lol

i still got work to do in english, in bahasa indonesia, in chemistry *SUCKS*, in pre calculus, in algebra II, the works are pilling up up up up and i'm drowned.

what else?

i've been going to citos almost everyday afterschool for a week or two, mainly because, it's the closest place to go to from my school and...i just dont wanna go home too fast LOL, i've been going to TRS alot, for more info check out this post by my buddy Gee and i almost already tried half the things on the menu, and if you read that the owner really loves the three of us :D so we loveee going there :]

um um what else?

ppl have been hanging at my house these past few weeks lol :D im gonna make a post about that later on ;]

vids on youtube?

i've been watching clevverTV a lot these days and also WHATTHEBUCK

i like the girls in clevverTV because the way they talk is just sooo professional and they talk about things that matters to me like Twilight Saga, Disney Bitches,new movies and stuff :D and WHATTHEBUCK IS JUST LOVE LOL!! That guy is frekin funny and great i love em love em love em :D and the fact that he hates Miley as A SINGER and A PERSON made me love him more :]

and now because of Deby ;] i am in love with polyvore~

Huhuuuw~

2009-04-29T05:01:00.000-07:00

i havent posted anything the last few days because i was tired and kinda depressed~

anyway i have been feeling mellow this few days, even though i dont show it that much...i havent been very productive and efficient lately.

Being the insomniac i am, after coming home from school ranging from 5-8 o'clock in the evening, i will feel very sleepy when i got to my room and eventually falls asleep. i'll wake up at 9 or 10 and take a shower, then i'll be as ALIVE as i can be...

THIS HABIT IS DEVELOPED AFTER THE FRIGGIN NEW YORK TRIP

the jet lag + diabetes is creepin' up on my daily habit...SUCKS...

I'll usually pretend to just wake up at 5 o'clock and wonder around the kitchen searching for my favorite coffee in the world...

i keep one by my desk just in case it's an emergency hahaha

i love love that thing soo much, if this doesnt do, it's strong americano for me, but that's only for severe cases when i cannot even open my eyes...

anyway, summer's coming and i am still struggling with my assignments and re-assessment, because i dont wanna go to SUMMER SCHOOL for heaven's sake...

and this summer my SISTER is COMING BACK TO JAKARTA :D :D :D :D

this was the last pic we took together when she left Jakarta for Melbourne last year

dad, mom, me and my sis :) my bro took the pic

i miss her so much, i even miss fighting over stupid stuff with her

in regards of all things bothering me, i feel most light this days, not in terms of weight, oh GOD i think i am gaining weight everydaay..... i mean like, light as in feeling, i feel light, which is not always good because i think light could be caused of emptiness

i hate being empty because i am full of thoughts -_- and i cant control my money that well these days, i dont know why but it SUCKS

well, i'm planning to go to my junior's birthday bash this friday,hope it'll be fun because i didnt went to my three closest friends sweet seventeen party -_- (nadine, necil, tasia), i just wanna have some fun :)

and oh yeah, i wanna share some songs that have been stuck on my head this last few days and the reason why...

Damaged - Danity Kane i'm feeling rnb-ish this days, i have this song for so long in my itunes and i just startin' liking it now. i just like the lyrics and the part where it says "do do you got a first aid kit handy?" and "i tried every remedy but nothing seems to work for me..." and "and you can blame the one before..." and my fave "how you gonna fix it fix it fix it?" the lyrics are just so UGH, the song is very dynamic and i really like the vocals :)

Is It You? - Cassie the beat is just really - really nice and the lyrics are just so sweet :) i just like the chorus it makes me happy hearing this song. i like the part when she sing "i'm looking for someone who could understand, how i feel someone who can keep it real and who knows the way~ the way i like to have it my way..." it's my favorite song out of all song from Step Up 2: The Streets
Missing You - Trey Songz SeungRi from Big Bang used this song for his dance battle during a gayo daejun and i was hooked by his dancing to this song :) Trey has a very nice voice, it's so rnb, the lyrics is just so desperate i love it :D "i cant stop missing, wish i was there with you~" and "miss the way you put on your make up, miss the way you love me too much, it's everything about you baby, i wanna know how you've been lately..."
Beautiful Love - The Afters not a rnb song but i just love the melody and the magical lyrics, this was the opening song for MTV's 8th and Ocean, i just can't get the song out of my head, it's just addictive "what a beautiful smile, cant stay for a while, on this beautiful night, make everything right, my beautiful love..." and "maybe a greater thing will happen, maybe you will see, maybe our love will catch like fire as it burns through me.." how could you not love it?
Vegas Skies - The Cab not a rnb song again, i just love the cab :D thanks to this guy for telling me about them, it's just the mixture of the strong vocal, magical melody on the piano, the touchy lyrics and atmosphere of the song... "so say good night, our first good bye, i only got forever and forever is fine...just take your time, we'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right..." and the ultimate part, "it's a long way down, just fall into place and you'll fall into me, we'll make it out, you'll see..."

that's it for now peeps, y'all have a good day :)

I AM ASHAMED!!

2009-04-26T19:51:00.000-07:00

I am NOT WORTHY to call my self a VIP -_- I FORGOT THAT on the 26th was DAE DAE's BIRTHDAY!! ARGHH!

i have been too drunk on 2PM and JaeBeom especially huhuhu, i neglected Big Bang somehow, i am so sorry *bows down*

MY FAVORITE DORAEMON FREAK + TROT SINGER IN THE WORLD

KANG DAESUNG

ANYEONGHASEYO, DAESUNG IMNIDAAAAAAA~

Happy Birthday DaeSung oppa!!

Hahaha, i still cant believe how young he is, he's only 21 years old (korean age) :) He seems so old to me, maybe because the trot and all hahaha. I love love this guy very much, he never fails to make me laugh my ass of, he could just say his name and i would laugh :D

AND i love him on family outing so so very much, but i kinda hate it that Hyori get a lot of SKINSHIP with him huhuw TT_TT

and i think he got the best voice in Big Bang, it's just so loud and powerful :) definitely the voice of an angel~

He's doing so well in variety right now and he even has his own cf with the Big Hit Chicken

I personally think he will continue to do well in the showbiz :D

so, i want to wish DaeSung Oppa a happy birthday and wonderful year ahead oppa!

i wish you will do well with Big Bang and on your own!

Always keep on flashing your energetic smile and wonderful voice to people around you :)

aaah Oppa, you've changed so much!!

It's true what GD said, that now you've become more and more handsome each day hahaha!

a big kiss from the Big Hit maker :D

ISNT THIS JUST CUTE??

2009-04-26T08:33:00.000-07:00

I am officially in love with Park JaeBeom of 2PM after watching this...

How could you not love him? AAAAAAAAAA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEBOM OPPA :D

2009-04-25T22:07:00.000-07:00

oh my god, i just happen to know that in the 25th it's JaeBeom's Birthday :D

The sexy leader of 2PM is now 23 years old!!

I wish him all the happiness and joy, God bless you Jaebeom!

and ooh! on the 25th 2PM also made a comeback on Music Core which was AWESOME! Everyone did great live, i was relieved because when i saw the previous comeback on Music Bank i was like "Oh no..are they tired or something?" BUT they made it all up with this awesome performance!! Check it out!

again and again and again~

the song is TOO CATCHY :D kinda sounds like "Nobody nobody but you...*clap2*" isnt it? BUT WHO CARES! JaeBeom did great :D All of them did! When Jae and Junsu was singing together i was like *squueee*, when Junho sings his part i was smiling so wide, he did great and he's also oh-so-cute :D

Speaking of JaeBeom, his fans gave him some crazy gifts ^^ and from what i've seen i saw something very familiar within those gifts..

3rd present from the top? AHAHAHA YES that GOLD Headphone! It's the same as Dheta's :D LOL i believed she bought that in Urban Outfitters in NY, HAHHA SHE'S SO LUCKY to have the same thing as JaeBeom oppa huhuw, and she doesnt even have a clue who JaeBeom is, LOL!!

Anyway, once again happy birthday JaeBeomie :D LOTS OF KISSES!!

lol, who else can wear a hanbok and still look so ghetto? :]

BitterSWEET

2009-04-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

The last post just was PLAIN bitter, i just got to let my emotions out. Now, i am doing just fine, just a teeny bit worried but you can never get over that feeling. I am sorry if my previous post offended anyone in anyway, i am truly sorry...

Anyway, after guilt of eating Loaded Cheese Fries, White Bread Pudding, Chocolate Fudge Brownies, Apple Pie, Sour Sally at the same day...

time for diet and exercise betch!

Going home from the NY trip, i've lost weight. But i was so stupid i did not kept it off, i eat like a HOG then i was like just plain JET LAGGED and all i need is comfort food in the WRONG TIME OF THE DAY TO EAT which is midnight , my mom noticed that i gained weight and when i look at the mirror i see this

There aint nothing wrong with ms. Star Jones aytt??? i mean she's fabulous and all, but i just felt like my face will resembles her EVEN MORE if i don't start dieting soon huhu TT_TT fyi now she's really hot and sexy, apparently she lost weight and now looked like this

So my diet will simply be a combination of EATING LESS + SCHOOL WORK + CHORES + GYM WORKOUT + SKIP DINNER, yeah, whatever people may say about it, screw it, i know it works :) and i have to keep my self motivated, zzz its so hard! i just think i need to do it first.

lol only money and this fine men could keep me motivated RAWR~

5. PARK JAEBEOM (2PM)

Okay, isn't he just DELICIOUS :) Okay, he's the leader of 2PM, korean, american born, he could dance. OH HE COULD DANCE ALRIGHT ^^, i help my self NOT TO STARE when he RIP his SHIRT OFF or do random hip THRUST. Damn boy, you're killing me and you don't even know it :) His rap is tight and also his singing! Despite all that roaring hotness, he can be such a cutie :) I LOVE THAT HE HAS PROBLEMS TALKING AND UNDERSTANDING KOREAN :) of course he's fluent in english, which is a huge reason why i like him

4. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)

I've like him for a long time :D Prince Kyuhyun!! As the maknae of Super Junior he surely stands out :D In my opinion he got the BEST voice in Super Junior equivalent with Ye Sung

On top of that he has this prince like qualities, like those charming smiles NYAAW and that tall lean body and that flawless skin and that PERFECT, JUST PERFECT FACE. I was always worried that he's gonna be neglected because his the maknae but LOL, how wrong was i, he got the top 5 largest fan base of all suju members :) people may argue and say Siwon is the best looking but to me Kyuhyun's pretty boy charm bites! rawr~

3. EUNHYUK (Super Junior)

EunHyukie :D I've like him for a long time too, ever since i watch this i was like "OH MY GOD WHO'S THAT CUTIE OVER THERE?" He was so cute in that video :) esp in 2.16-2.17!! Then i found out he's like the best dancer in Super Junior, he can pop like crazy man... He's the rapper in Super Junior, he doesn't sing much but that's okay :D He's a radio DJ too, he's always funny and cracking jokes here and there :) A variety show pro! He's so good at imitation, overall he's a really funny guy who can make me smile so easily. On top of that i like how he doesn't look PLASTIC :) He looks the same as he is when his in high school, that's with JUNSU of DBSK btw, they're buddies from then till now :)

2. JUNSU (Dong Bang Shin Ki)

I LOVE THIS GUY :) He's the first korean guy i really really really like :D Why do i like him? His voice is the voice of an ANGEL. People can say Jaejoong have the best voice but NU-UH, i think Junsu has the best voice :) It's husky, sexy and oh-so powerful! His singing skills are beyond amazing, he can also play piano and guitar. ON TOP OF THAT, he's a great dancer, even Yunho (the best dancer in DBSK) wants to learn from him! He stole the CUTENESS away from the Maknae because he's TOO CUTE! HAHAHA he's called the angel of the group. And i love how a GOOD BOY he is! He doesn't drink and he likes to play with his twin brother :) he's sooo sweet :)

1. TOP (Big Bang)

i see skies of blue...

Clouds of white...

Bright Blessed Days...

and Dark Sacred Nights...

And i think to my self...

What a Wonderful world...

This is the guy i hope to meet someday, date, get married and have his children LOL

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

i really wish tho. huhu

At first when i watched Big Bang for the very first time i have to confess my heart was hooked by this guy, mr. Kwon Ji Yong a.k.a G-Dragon, BUT NOT FOR LONG UNTIL THIS GUY APPEARS!!

Why do i love this SEXY BEAST? LOL, he is so good looking and fine~ His eyes, his lips, his skin, his flawless face, his long fingers, his lean body, his style, his mile, his crooked smile, his funny expression, his awesome talent, his EVERYTHING :D

He could pull of any hairstyle, seriously even cornrows looks OKAY with him, he could go bald and i could just still drool over him, he could rock any hair do, any OUTFIT will do for him, but man i love his style, he LOOKS GOOD IN SUITS, in fact he's named #1 by M-net for Best Celebs in Suits :] I'm so happy finding that out. He's also generous and caring to his family, btw his BLOODLINE IS PRECIOUS!! All of his family are blessed with good looks, THEY LOOK LIKE EACH OTHER, OMG THEY MIGHT ASWELL JUST BE THE KOREAN CULLENS HUHUHU and i could be BELLA :p, NOT!!!

He is just oh so dreamy :) Despite his absent on the abs category :) HE'S DOING JUST FINE IN MY HEART :)

Okay, so this is it for now folks, have a nice day :D

btw, this guy is a future hottie and star :)

New York Part 1 :)

2009-04-22T07:00:00.000-07:00

this is old, but i went to New York City with some of my friends at school. The trip was f-ing awesome. I'm glad i choose to go to New York! I me

an i have been dreaming of going to this place for so long and not to mention GOING WITH FRIENDS :) Before i went i was tad worried about my mom, but she convince me to just go, cause it's already been paid, tee-hee!

i left jakarta early in the morning, we went to singapore first then we will continue to NY. But, the plane isn't boarding until another 12 hours

so we stayed at HYATT and go for a walk at ORCHARD ROAD

it was fun but we TOTALY looked like GENUINE tourist lol

Then we finally boarded and went our way to Frankfurt, HONESTLY it was very very very tiring. My butt was sore for sitting for 18 straight hours. My neck hurts because i cant sleep right and my feet was sore for sitting down. The footrest didn't help AT ALL. Wearing high top shoes does not help you at all... My ankle was SORE because the shoe is so high. For some reason the only thing that is alright is my HAIR, i did curled it the night before but damn it stays good and true through the whole flight :) i was pleased. Despite the horrible aches i get to watch movies and TV shows, it was fun the selection was pretty updated. I have to also admit that DAMN, IN-FLIGHT FOOD IS SO DAMN GOOD!!! God bless the chef :) i couldn't help but smirk or open up my eyes (if i was asleep) when i hear the HOLY SOUND of that cart moving~~ When we arrived to Frankfurt, i did nothing but Stretch and find my self a bathroom. The bathroom was ALRIGHT, at least it was clean. It was cold, i didn't wear any jacket when i step out the plane, the cold hits right to my SPINE! Then we continue another 8 or 6 hour flight to JFK, New York! On the way, i was constantly checking my passport, immigration card and wallet, i was so scared of the immigration but despite the LOOONG LINE everything was fine :)

When were greeted by my friend Ina, the owner of the school and parents there. My friend was waiting for her boyfriend. Then we went to THIS PLACE THAT I WILL TREASURE FOREVER :) The Bedford Hotel :)

I was in the same room with Ica, Ella, Thari and Roemy. All 5 year 11 girls :) Right after we check out the room, which is actually the biggest room in the hotel :D and dumped our luggage we went STRAIGHT to TIME SQUARE BABYYY!!!

It felt like dreaming just walking around there :)

LOL that's when i felt dude..YOU ARE IN NEW YORK NOW!! I mean this place has been attacked by Godzilla, King Kong and too many aliens to count!! There's so many movies shot here, i cant stop saying "Oooh! This is the place that blablabla did blablabla in blablabla" From I Am Legend to Definitely Maybe i was such in daze, i was lost for words :)

The holy FOOT LOCKER was there :] I TOTALLY REGRET JUST BUYING ONE PAIR OF SHOES! DAMN!! More details of the shoes i bought on the next post :)

COMEBACK

2009-04-22T06:32:00.000-07:00

hi there peeps :D i just want to say my blog will be more active from now on! Despite all the annoying school assignment and due dates, I'm just going to make my blog active for the sake of it :)

peace out!

btw, check THIS OUT it really brightens your day :D

Rice Nation!

2009-01-14T18:25:00.000-08:00

Okay, i gotta admit this is going to be very very cheesy. As an asian i have to admit this fact, I really really like rice :], a very important staple in my life! I mean what could be more scrumptious than a bowl of hot soft firm rice?

Indonesia is an agricultural country, which means that our country's main income suppose to came from agricultural industry. So what could be more suitable than me as a citizen admits that she cant live with out rice? I rather not eat completely than to eat something with out rice. It's always have been that way ever since i was little, i mean my mother would cook steak with potato chips and i will ask for a bowl of rice! Ever tried eating fries with rice? It taste okay, but i wouldn't have it everyday. The problem is, rice is carbohydrate if you eat too much of it, it becomes FAT. So, if i like

eating rice i must exercise, aaah~. I'm 10 kg overweight than my BMI, my doctor tells me i should lose it or else. Because i have diabetes and it could really ruin my kidney if it gets worse. I can live with out eating

sweets and sugars because i dont really like it but RICE!! OH MY GOD, i cant go on without at least eating rice once a day.

My mom didn't exactly helped me with this situation because she likes rice too. She kept on cooking rice everyday(okay, she shouldn't stop doing it because i still have family!) Okay if you're in Indonesia, go to your local supermarket and ask for a rice brand called, "Cap Topi Koki". It's way more expensive than the regular rice but GOD it really taste the best! It's not sticky like japanese rice, not to dry like local rice (even though it is local), it's just perfect! even if you put too much water when you cook it, the texture

only change a little.

(okay, right now you're really thinking i'm either a dork or a freak right? hehe)

I'm really concern about me going to

study overseas and not get to eat rice. It's not that rice doesnt exist there, it's a world wide known staple food, of course it can be found in any supermarket of a growing country! But it just doesnt taste the same right?

Okay, okay so the real reason why i wrote this is to say goodbye, a FAREWELL to good ol' rice.., because i'm on a diet, it's called The Atkins

It's pretty popular, but if you're really cl

ueless about it, i'll explain...

get it?? Well that kinda makes sense...it's better than some crash course diet when you only eat grapefruits or some indian bitter tea. I want to be on a diet when i can still eat my mommy's delicious foods. It seems that this diet is t

o go, oh yeah wondering why i'm on a diet?

it's because of...this...

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See? A picture could explain so much...Well, despite that i just wanna be healthier ;] and i gotta admit i wanna look better, not for someone else, i'm done trying to please other people, i just wanna do it for my self, make a better me out of me.

So now i'm starting the first phase of diet ;] which includes me to only eat 20 grams of Carbohydrate per day...

but, lets just stick with this one...oh GOD, two weeks ppl!!! I GOTTA GET THROUGH THIS!

I Look Like This Y'all

2009-01-13T17:20:00.000-08:00

this me nowadays, glasses wearing :D without them i'm literally blind -_-

Correct that picture, actually two years had just passed since i made that collage :D so hello, hello world. My names is Claudya, call me choco, clau, claw, klod, klodoo, tolo [you dont wanna know...] i spend way too much time online and i'm to lazy to speak up my mind sometimes, so i'm just gonna spill it here.

This Blog Thing

2009-01-13T16:58:00.000-08:00

Err, to tell you the truth I used to write blogs before, but it always didn't last. But this time I'm like really determined to make this blog keep on going. I spend way too much time online ANYWAY and sometimes I'm just too lazy to speak up my mind in front of people, so i'll just write it here.

For those of you that don't know me, HI! I'm just a

high school junior still living in Jakarta, as much as i love this city i really can't wait to get out of here. I'm just, BORED here. The same thing happens everyday~

I like ART very much, that includes photography, design, painting, scrapbook etc. I'm very much into literature and movies. I really like reading. This might seem random but i'm very much into the K-POP scene, harr harr.

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Big Bang, Humming Urban Stereo, Clazziquai, Wonder Girls, Epik High

I also like DBSK, F.T Island, J, Loveholic, Super Junior and ShinEE

I wanna show you some of my work of photography :D this are some of my best, from my own view, just check it out

Please do enjoy this :D

First

2008-12-25T03:24:00.000-08:00

created out of boredom for sure hahaha :D

enjoy my random posts, i don't even fucking care if no one reads this blog

Merry Christmas, because it is today

About Us

2007-01-01T08:54:00.000-08:00