Huhuuuw~

i havent posted anything the last few days because i was tired and kinda depressed~ 

anyway i have been feeling mellow this few days, even though i dont show it that much...i havent been very productive and efficient lately.

Being the insomniac i am, after coming home from school ranging from 5-8 o'clock in the evening, i will feel very sleepy when i got to my room and eventually falls asleep. i'll wake up at 9 or 10 and take a shower, then i'll be as ALIVE as i can be...

THIS HABIT IS DEVELOPED AFTER THE FRIGGIN NEW YORK TRIP

the jet lag + diabetes is creepin' up on my daily habit...SUCKS...

I'll usually pretend to just wake up at 5 o'clock and wonder around the kitchen searching for my favorite coffee in the world...

i keep one by my desk just in case it's an emergency hahaha

i love love that thing soo much, if this doesnt do, it's strong americano for me, but that's only for severe cases when i cannot even open my eyes...

anyway, summer's coming and i am still struggling with my assignments and re-assessment, because i dont wanna go to SUMMER SCHOOL for heaven's sake...

and this summer my SISTER is COMING BACK TO JAKARTA :D :D :D :D

this was the last pic we took together when she left Jakarta for Melbourne last year 

dad, mom, me and my sis :) my bro took the pic

i miss her so much, i even miss fighting over stupid stuff with her

in regards of all things bothering me, i feel most light this days, not in terms of weight, oh GOD i think i am gaining weight everydaay..... i mean like, light as in feeling, i feel light, which is not always good because i think light could be caused of emptiness

i hate being empty because i am full of thoughts -_- and i cant control my money that well these days, i dont know why but it SUCKS

well, i'm planning to go to my junior's birthday bash this friday,hope it'll be fun because i didnt went to my three closest friends sweet seventeen party -_- (nadine, necil, tasia), i just wanna have some fun :)

and oh yeah, i wanna share some songs that have been stuck on my head this last few days and the reason why...

• Damaged - Danity Kane i'm feeling rnb-ish this days, i have this song for so long in my itunes and i just startin' liking it now. i just like the lyrics and the part where it says "do do you got a first aid kit handy?" and "i tried every remedy but nothing seems to work for me..." and "and you can blame the one before..." and my fave "how you gonna fix it fix it fix it?" the lyrics are just so UGH, the song is very dynamic and i really like the vocals :)
  

• Is It You? - Cassie the beat is just really - really nice and the lyrics are just so sweet :) i just like the chorus it makes me happy hearing this song. i like the part when she sing "i'm looking for someone who could understand, how i feel someone who can keep it real and who knows the way~ the way i like to have it my way..." it's my favorite song out of all song from Step Up 2: The Streets
  
  
• Missing You - Trey Songz SeungRi from Big Bang used this song for his dance battle during a gayo daejun and i was hooked by his dancing to this song :) Trey has a very nice voice, it's so rnb, the lyrics is just so desperate i love it :D "i cant stop missing, wish i was there with you~" and "miss the way you put on your make up, miss the way you love me too much, it's everything about you baby, i wanna know how you've been lately..."
  
  
• Beautiful Love - The Afters not a rnb song but i just love the melody and the magical lyrics, this was the opening song for MTV's 8th and Ocean, i just can't get the song out of my head, it's just addictive "what a beautiful smile, cant stay for a while, on this beautiful night, make everything right, my beautiful love..." and "maybe a greater thing will happen, maybe you will see, maybe our love will catch like fire as it burns through me.." how could you not love it?
  
  
• Vegas Skies - The Cab not a rnb song again, i just love the cab :D thanks to this guy for telling me about them, it's just the mixture of the strong vocal, magical melody on the piano, the touchy lyrics and atmosphere of the song... "so say good night, our first good bye, i only got forever and forever is fine...just take your time, we'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right..." and the ultimate part, "it's a long way down, just fall into place and you'll fall into me, we'll make it out, you'll see..." 
  
  
  

that's it for now peeps, y'all have a good day :)

I AM ASHAMED!!

I am NOT WORTHY to call my self a VIP -_- I FORGOT THAT on the 26th was DAE DAE's BIRTHDAY!! ARGHH!

i have been too drunk on 2PM and JaeBeom especially huhuhu, i neglected Big Bang somehow, i am so sorry *bows down*

MY FAVORITE DORAEMON FREAK + TROT SINGER IN THE WORLD

KANG DAESUNG

ANYEONGHASEYO, DAESUNG IMNIDAAAAAAA~

Happy Birthday DaeSung oppa!! 

Hahaha, i still cant believe how young he is, he's only 21 years old (korean age) :) He seems so old to me, maybe because the trot and all hahaha. I love love this guy very much, he never fails to make me laugh my ass of, he could just say his name and i would laugh :D

AND i love him on family outing so so very much, but i kinda hate it that Hyori get a lot of SKINSHIP with him huhuw TT_TT 

and i think he got the best voice in Big Bang, it's just so loud and powerful :) definitely the voice of an angel~

He's doing so well in variety right now and he even has his own cf with the Big Hit Chicken

I personally think he will continue to do well in the showbiz :D

so, i want to wish DaeSung Oppa a happy birthday and wonderful year ahead oppa!

i wish you will do well with Big Bang and on your own!

Always keep on flashing your energetic smile and wonderful voice to people around you :)

aaah Oppa, you've changed so much!!

It's true what GD said, that now you've become more and more handsome each day hahaha!

a big kiss from the Big Hit maker :D

ISNT THIS JUST CUTE??

I am officially in love with Park JaeBeom of 2PM after watching this...

How could you not love him? AAAAAAAAAA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEBOM OPPA :D

oh my god, i just happen to know that in the 25th it's JaeBeom's Birthday :D

The sexy leader of 2PM is now 23 years old!!

I wish him all the happiness and joy, God bless you Jaebeom!

and ooh! on the 25th 2PM also made a comeback on Music Core which was AWESOME! Everyone did great live, i was relieved because when i saw the previous comeback on Music Bank i was like "Oh no..are they tired or something?" BUT they made it all up with this awesome performance!! Check it out!

again and again and again~

the song is TOO CATCHY :D kinda sounds like "Nobody nobody but you...*clap2*" isnt it? BUT WHO CARES! JaeBeom did great :D All of them did! When Jae and Junsu was singing together i was like *squueee*, when Junho sings his part i was smiling so wide, he did great and he's also oh-so-cute :D

Speaking of JaeBeom, his fans gave him some crazy gifts ^^ and from what i've seen i saw something very familiar within those gifts..

3rd present from the top? AHAHAHA YES that GOLD Headphone! It's the same as Dheta's :D LOL i believed she bought that in Urban Outfitters in NY, HAHHA SHE'S SO LUCKY to have the same thing as JaeBeom oppa huhuw, and she doesnt even have a clue who JaeBeom is, LOL!!

Anyway, once again happy birthday JaeBeomie :D LOTS OF KISSES!!

lol, who else can wear a hanbok and still look so ghetto? :]

BitterSWEET

The last post just was PLAIN bitter, i just got to let my emotions out. Now, i am doing just fine, just a teeny bit worried but you can never get over that feeling. I am sorry if my previous post offended anyone in anyway, i am truly sorry...

Anyway, after guilt of eating Loaded Cheese Fries, White Bread Pudding, Chocolate Fudge Brownies, Apple Pie, Sour Sally at the same day... 

time for diet and exercise betch!

Going home from the NY trip, i've lost weight. But i was so stupid i did not kept it off, i eat like a HOG then i was like just plain JET LAGGED and all i need is comfort food in the WRONG TIME OF THE DAY TO EAT which is midnight , my mom noticed that i gained weight and when i look at the mirror i see this

There aint nothing wrong with ms. Star Jones aytt??? i mean she's fabulous and all, but i just felt like my face will resembles her EVEN MORE if i don't start dieting soon huhu TT_TT fyi now she's really hot and sexy, apparently she lost weight and now looked like this

So my diet will simply be a combination of EATING LESS + SCHOOL WORK + CHORES + GYM WORKOUT + SKIP DINNER, yeah, whatever people may say about it, screw it, i know it works :) and i have to keep my self motivated, zzz its so hard! i just think i need to do it first.

lol only money and this fine men could keep me motivated RAWR~

5. PARK JAEBEOM (2PM)

Okay, isn't he just DELICIOUS :) Okay, he's the leader of 2PM, korean, american born, he could dance. OH HE COULD DANCE ALRIGHT ^^, i help my self NOT TO STARE when he RIP his SHIRT OFF or do random hip THRUST. Damn boy, you're killing me and you don't even know it :) His rap is tight and also his singing! Despite all that roaring hotness, he can be such a cutie :) I LOVE THAT HE HAS PROBLEMS TALKING AND UNDERSTANDING KOREAN :) of course he's fluent in english, which is a huge reason why i like him

4. Kyuhyun (Super Junior)

I've like him for a long time :D Prince Kyuhyun!! As the maknae of Super Junior he surely stands out :D In my opinion he got the BEST voice in Super Junior equivalent with Ye Sung 

On top of that he has this prince like qualities, like those charming smiles NYAAW and that tall lean body and that flawless skin and that PERFECT, JUST PERFECT FACE. I was always worried that he's gonna be neglected because his the maknae but LOL, how wrong was i, he got the top 5 largest fan base of all suju members :) people may argue and say Siwon is the best looking but to me Kyuhyun's pretty boy charm bites! rawr~

3. EUNHYUK (Super Junior)

EunHyukie :D I've like him for a long time too, ever since i watch this i was like "OH MY GOD WHO'S THAT CUTIE OVER THERE?" He was so cute in that video :) esp in 2.16-2.17!! Then i found out he's like the best dancer in Super Junior, he can pop like crazy man... He's the rapper in Super Junior, he doesn't sing much but that's okay :D He's a radio DJ too, he's always funny and cracking jokes here and there :) A variety show pro! He's so good at imitation, overall he's a really funny guy who can make me smile so easily. On top of that i like how he doesn't look PLASTIC :) He looks the same as he is when his in high school, that's with JUNSU of DBSK btw, they're buddies from then till now :)

2. JUNSU (Dong Bang Shin Ki)

I LOVE THIS GUY :) He's the first korean guy i really really really like :D Why do i like him? His voice is the voice of an ANGEL. People can say Jaejoong  have the best voice but NU-UH, i think Junsu has the best voice :) It's husky, sexy and oh-so powerful! His singing skills are beyond amazing, he can also play piano and guitar. ON TOP OF THAT, he's a great dancer, even Yunho (the best dancer in DBSK) wants to learn from him! He stole the CUTENESS away from the Maknae because he's TOO CUTE! HAHAHA he's called the angel of the group. And i love how a GOOD BOY he is! He doesn't drink and he likes to play with his twin brother :) he's sooo sweet :)

1. TOP (Big Bang)

i see skies of blue...

Clouds of white...

Bright Blessed Days...

and Dark Sacred Nights...

And i think to my self...

What a Wonderful world...

This is the guy i hope to meet someday, date, get married and have his children LOL

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

i really wish tho. huhu

At first when i watched Big Bang for the very first time i have to confess my heart was hooked by this guy, mr. Kwon Ji Yong a.k.a G-Dragon, BUT NOT FOR LONG UNTIL THIS GUY APPEARS!!

Why do i love this SEXY BEAST? LOL, he is so good looking and fine~ His eyes, his lips, his skin, his flawless face, his long fingers, his lean body, his style, his mile, his crooked smile, his funny expression, his awesome talent, his EVERYTHING :D

He could pull of any hairstyle, seriously even cornrows looks OKAY with him, he could go bald and i could just still drool over him, he could rock any hair do, any OUTFIT will do for him, but man i love his style, he LOOKS GOOD IN SUITS, in fact he's named #1 by M-net for Best Celebs in Suits :] I'm so happy finding that out. He's also generous and caring to his family, btw his BLOODLINE IS PRECIOUS!! All of his family are blessed with good looks, THEY LOOK LIKE EACH OTHER, OMG THEY MIGHT ASWELL JUST BE THE KOREAN CULLENS HUHUHU and i could be BELLA :p, NOT!!!

He is just oh so dreamy :) Despite his absent on the abs category :) HE'S DOING JUST FINE IN MY HEART :) 

Okay, so this is it for now folks, have a nice day :D

btw, this guy is a future hottie and star :)

New York Part 1 :)

this is old, but i went to New York City with some of my friends at school. The trip was f-ing awesome. I'm glad i choose to go to New York! I me

an i have been dreaming of going to this place for so long and not to mention GOING WITH FRIENDS :) Before i went i was tad worried about my mom, but she convince me to just go, cause it's already been paid, tee-hee!

i left jakarta early in the morning, we went to singapore first then we will continue to NY. But, the plane isn't boarding until another 12 hours

 so we stayed at HYATT and go for a walk at ORCHARD ROAD

it was fun but we TOTALY looked like GENUINE tourist lol

Then we finally boarded and went our way to Frankfurt, HONESTLY it was very very very tiring. My butt was sore for sitting for 18 straight hours. My neck hurts because i cant sleep right and my feet was sore for sitting down. The footrest didn't help AT ALL. Wearing high top shoes does not help you at all... My ankle was SORE because the shoe is so high. For some reason the only thing that is alright is my HAIR, i did curled it the night before but damn it stays good and true through the whole flight :) i was pleased. Despite the horrible aches i get to watch movies and TV shows, it was fun the selection was pretty updated. I have to also admit that DAMN, IN-FLIGHT FOOD IS SO DAMN GOOD!!! God bless the chef :) i couldn't help but smirk or open up my eyes (if i was asleep) when i hear the HOLY SOUND of that cart moving~~ When we arrived to Frankfurt, i did nothing but Stretch and find my self a bathroom. The bathroom was ALRIGHT, at least it was clean. It was cold, i didn't wear any jacket when i step out the plane, the cold hits right to my SPINE! Then we continue another 8 or 6 hour flight to JFK, New York! On the way, i was constantly checking my passport, immigration card and wallet, i was so scared of the immigration but despite the LOOONG LINE everything was fine :)

When were greeted by my friend Ina, the owner of the school and parents there. My friend was waiting for her boyfriend. Then we went to THIS PLACE THAT I WILL TREASURE FOREVER :) The Bedford Hotel :)

I was in the same room with Ica, Ella, Thari and Roemy. All 5 year 11 girls :) Right after we check out the room, which is actually the biggest room in the hotel :D and dumped our luggage we went STRAIGHT to TIME SQUARE BABYYY!!!

It felt like dreaming just walking around there :)

LOL that's when i felt dude..YOU ARE IN NEW YORK NOW!! I mean this place has been attacked by Godzilla, King Kong and too many aliens to count!! There's so many movies shot here, i cant stop saying "Oooh! This is the place that blablabla did blablabla in blablabla" From I Am Legend to Definitely Maybe i was such in daze, i was lost for words :)

The holy FOOT LOCKER was there :] I TOTALLY REGRET JUST BUYING ONE PAIR OF SHOES! DAMN!! More details of the shoes i bought on the next post :) 

COMEBACK

hi there peeps :D i just want to say my blog will be more active from now on! Despite all the annoying school assignment and due dates, I'm just going to make my blog active for the sake of it :)

peace out!

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