Huhuuuw~

i havent posted anything the last few days because i was tired and kinda depressed~ 

anyway i have been feeling mellow this few days, even though i dont show it that much...i havent been very productive and efficient lately.

Being the insomniac i am, after coming home from school ranging from 5-8 o'clock in the evening, i will feel very sleepy when i got to my room and eventually falls asleep. i'll wake up at 9 or 10 and take a shower, then i'll be as ALIVE as i can be...

THIS HABIT IS DEVELOPED AFTER THE FRIGGIN NEW YORK TRIP

the jet lag + diabetes is creepin' up on my daily habit...SUCKS...

I'll usually pretend to just wake up at 5 o'clock and wonder around the kitchen searching for my favorite coffee in the world...

i keep one by my desk just in case it's an emergency hahaha

i love love that thing soo much, if this doesnt do, it's strong americano for me, but that's only for severe cases when i cannot even open my eyes...

anyway, summer's coming and i am still struggling with my assignments and re-assessment, because i dont wanna go to SUMMER SCHOOL for heaven's sake...

and this summer my SISTER is COMING BACK TO JAKARTA :D :D :D :D

this was the last pic we took together when she left Jakarta for Melbourne last year 

dad, mom, me and my sis :) my bro took the pic

i miss her so much, i even miss fighting over stupid stuff with her

in regards of all things bothering me, i feel most light this days, not in terms of weight, oh GOD i think i am gaining weight everydaay..... i mean like, light as in feeling, i feel light, which is not always good because i think light could be caused of emptiness

i hate being empty because i am full of thoughts -_- and i cant control my money that well these days, i dont know why but it SUCKS

well, i'm planning to go to my junior's birthday bash this friday,hope it'll be fun because i didnt went to my three closest friends sweet seventeen party -_- (nadine, necil, tasia), i just wanna have some fun :)

and oh yeah, i wanna share some songs that have been stuck on my head this last few days and the reason why...

• Damaged - Danity Kane i'm feeling rnb-ish this days, i have this song for so long in my itunes and i just startin' liking it now. i just like the lyrics and the part where it says "do do you got a first aid kit handy?" and "i tried every remedy but nothing seems to work for me..." and "and you can blame the one before..." and my fave "how you gonna fix it fix it fix it?" the lyrics are just so UGH, the song is very dynamic and i really like the vocals :)
  

• Is It You? - Cassie the beat is just really - really nice and the lyrics are just so sweet :) i just like the chorus it makes me happy hearing this song. i like the part when she sing "i'm looking for someone who could understand, how i feel someone who can keep it real and who knows the way~ the way i like to have it my way..." it's my favorite song out of all song from Step Up 2: The Streets
  
  
• Missing You - Trey Songz SeungRi from Big Bang used this song for his dance battle during a gayo daejun and i was hooked by his dancing to this song :) Trey has a very nice voice, it's so rnb, the lyrics is just so desperate i love it :D "i cant stop missing, wish i was there with you~" and "miss the way you put on your make up, miss the way you love me too much, it's everything about you baby, i wanna know how you've been lately..."
  
  
• Beautiful Love - The Afters not a rnb song but i just love the melody and the magical lyrics, this was the opening song for MTV's 8th and Ocean, i just can't get the song out of my head, it's just addictive "what a beautiful smile, cant stay for a while, on this beautiful night, make everything right, my beautiful love..." and "maybe a greater thing will happen, maybe you will see, maybe our love will catch like fire as it burns through me.." how could you not love it?
  
  
• Vegas Skies - The Cab not a rnb song again, i just love the cab :D thanks to this guy for telling me about them, it's just the mixture of the strong vocal, magical melody on the piano, the touchy lyrics and atmosphere of the song... "so say good night, our first good bye, i only got forever and forever is fine...just take your time, we'll stop the clock together and know that the timing was right..." and the ultimate part, "it's a long way down, just fall into place and you'll fall into me, we'll make it out, you'll see..." 
  
  
  

that's it for now peeps, y'all have a good day :)